I’ve been wandering hopelessly lost in my own skin Knowing nothing you say or bring could ever bridge this distance If every bad dream is on account of me Then I'll deconstruct every bond between us
Don't the lights look empty When the streets are bare Almost as empty As the look you give me When I'm the only one And it's a long one So it brings you down So say you have nowhere else to go And nothing to do So you hang around You hang around But you wait around until You've received that fatal wound Columns of sunlight And glorious cities Oceans of opportunity And all your decisions seem ancient But you wait around until You've received that fatal wound
I still howl like an animal in the darkness And I'm reminded by the blood on my clothes I can't stand what I've become I'm shivering to spite the sun We come together and were overwhelmed by the loneliness
I wish there was a hell so you could be there to rot I wish there a god so I could slit his fucking throat I went to your funeral and nobody came I only showed up to piss in your grave
Breathe addiction and darkness I feel the smoke in my lungs My lips spit venom and poison All lies except when speaking of love Cover my ears to the ringing To the memories and pain Her voice like the singing of sirens Drown myself among the rocks and the waves
And I told them about the time where I tried to tie A red thread around her ankles in your bed at night When I woke it had broke and you slipped right out of sight And all you left was a note that said “boy you just don’t feel right” And now all I have is this note And the little bit of hope that she’ll come home And you keep searching so damn hard Just to try and find the reason why it fell apart But whats it gonna change?
Words the prophets said Still swimming through my head Now there's no stars left in the sky 'Cause this well will never run dry What if I completely forget? What if I never accept? 'Cause when you fade away It's like a brand new doomsday
Curtain's at nine Where is the playwright? Fucked up my line Deep in my wine Call off the door Keep them from charging I have the floor Love asked for more
I put your mother through hell, don't you mind I hurt your brother as well, don't you mind, don't you mind Oh, I was thinking 'bout killing myself, don't you mind I love you, don't you mind, don't you mind
And then it came to pass we cracked the hourglass left paradise behind out of sight out of mind We never stood a chance against this sick romance we have with our demise we have with all of life With mouths open wide our footprint steps inside and when there's nowhere to hide death comes with the tide
Young love is just practice for a far more ancient And hopefully successful bond Between someone who is scared And someone that they've incorrectly assumed to be strong You only want me when I've got my keys in my hand And I'm looking for my wallet and I'm lacing up my shoes You only want me to change when the way that I have always been has a new negative effect on you The unlucky over-achiever Cannot help but throw rocks at my parents' house I entertain myself with people I've never liked And motherfuckers that till now I've only spoken about Go forth and suffer for your art If it's all you look for, you will always find the dark I'm lonely and angry and desperate I smashed up my furniture broke my finger doing it I'm half crying, half laughing and half pissed And I wanna fuck everybody in the supermarket Everyone is so proud of their own self-reliance Right up until the cheque comes and you have to pay for dinner Everyone is so perfect and so open-minded Till you have a conversation where you are not the winner
I lost a good friend Christmas-time when folks go off the deep end His woman took the kids and he took Klonopin Enough to kill a man of twice his size Not for me to understand Remember him when he was still a proud man A vandal's smile, a baseball in his right hand Nothing but the blue sky in his eye Still, compared to those a stone's throw away from you Our lives have both been relatively easy
Someday we'll be complete like modern saints Baptize our kids in gasoline And hang our doubts up in cathedrals So that they turn to faith in the colored sunlight
if you don't learn to let go, it's gonna fill your soul until it overflows like a river in torrential rain, there's sadness rising over the banks and when you're caught up in the current, when you're too far gone to sing spread my love out like a safety net underneath your highwire act that way darling, should you ever fall, you won't have very far to go at all
damn, there's no practical advantage to chase that love from people hurting you see all kinds, ones who think they need it the ones who'll take it then the ones who know the truth
After all is said and done I feel the same All that I hoped would change within me stayed Like a huddled moonlit exile on the shore Warming his hands, a thousand years ago I walk with others in the yearning to get out Claw at my skin and gnash their teeth and shout One of them wants only to be someone you'd admire One would as soon just throw you on the fire After all is said and after all is done God only knows which of them I'll become
At the trial of God, we will ask: "Why did you allow all this?" And the answer will be an echo: "Why did you allow all this?"
I really think for once that I can change It’s really not that bad I’m learning now that I was wrong in everything And that’s the reason why I think that I can grow It’s really not that bad
I think I’m doing okay these days It’s just the pathos of all things I called you up just so I could say It will be here even if you’re not It will be here even if I’m not
Serenity, the condition we lack When you finally accept your surroundings, you can cut through the fat To the meat of the soul One grand old hole Stiff, blue, and cold And now I know it's too late A sinners dance of endless posturing Who the fuck are you when no one's watching?