And I am a weapon of massive consumption And it's not my fault it's how I'm programmed to function I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror I'm on the right track yeah I'm on to a winner I don't know what's right and what's real anymore I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore When do you think it will all become clear And I'll be taken over by the fear
I don't need nobody trying to make me over I just wanna live simple and free I just wanna get away Save it, all your bullshit, for another day Feeling confined, like I'm being forced in My vision's blurry and I'm lost in regrets It's overload, and I'm out of control So sick and tired of feeling so misused Taking me down with all your mental abuse I must say, gotta get you out of my head
And I'm the kind of love it hurts to look at But once I was enough to make you try Now I'm underneath the rubble Trying not to feel the trouble And you don't care for me enough to cry So here's hoping I can change tomorrow You wanted hard as nails cut and dry But I beg, steal, and borrow I'm so damn good at sorrow And you don't care for me enough to cry
In vibrant hues in subtle brush strokes of memory The life I’ve painted I have sold for a quick twenty
Blood on the carpet. Mud on the mattress Waking up with that American Sadness Dead receptors. Body limitations Weak handshakes and great expectations Bountiful chemicals. Beautiful kitchens So many choices. Decisions, decisions I said a couple things that probably weren't technically true
Oh, I'm about to break I can't stop this ache I'm addicted to your allure And I'm feindin' for a cure Every step I take Leads to one mistake I keep going right back to the one thing that I need, oh I can't mend, this torn state I'm in Getting nothing in return What did I do to deserve The pain of this slow burn And everywhere I turn I keep going right back to the one thing that I need To walk away from Every time I try to grasp for air I am smothered in despair it's never over, over It seems I'll never wake from this nightmare I let out a silent prayer let it be over, over Inside I'm screaming, begging, pleading no more I don't know what to do My heart has been bruised So sad but it's true Each beat reminds me of you
I wanna be solid as the earth and cool like the night air I wanna believe even though I know life don't play fair I wanna wear my heart on my sleeve but be tough when I have to I wanna dust off the stars and hang them on the wall for you I wanna ask all the questions with answers we'll never know I wanna find my faith in records from long ago I wanna set fear on fire and give dreaming a fair shot And never give up whether anybody cares or not
There's a club if you'd like to go you could meet somebody who really loves you so you go, and you stand on your own and you leave on your own and you go home, and you cry and you want to die When you say it's gonna happen "now" well, when exactly do you mean? see I've already waited too long and all my hope is gone You shut your mouth how can you say I go about things the wrong way I am human and I need to be loved just like everybody else does
Something down on the ground Won't let her out, it holds her in And he's afraid if she flies She'll never come home again Something about the bird And her spreading those wings Always brings the rifle out in him But the rifle loves the bird when she's singing And he knows every word to every song And the bird, she loves the rifle Cause he's dangerous, stubborn and strong
When I look back upon my life it’s always with a sense of shame I’ve always been the one to blame For everything I long to do no matter when or where or who has one thing in common too It’s a, it’s a, it’s a, it’s a sin It’s a sin Everything I’ve ever done Everything I ever do Every place I’ve ever been Everywhere I’m going to It’s a sin
all the stars are still shining but you're the only one i see i can feel when your heart beats, yeah and you can't keep your eyes off me
Stay 'till the darkness leaves Stay here with me I know you're busy, I know I'm just one But you might be the only one who sees me The only one to save me Why is it so hard? Why can't you just take me? I don't have much to go Before I fade completely Can you feel how cold I am? Do you cry as I do? Are you lonely up there all by yourself? Like I have felt all my life
There isn't a proper word For that snapping sound From stretching your problems so thin They eventually collapse No accidental word For disguising friends You can't find time for Appearing less, growing thin Too afraid of losing touch Too afraid of falling behind And I can't slow
I wouldn't have blamed you For leaving me there on the porch while you drank gasoline 'cause it's what you needed And it's true It's nothing that we could do
I watched them leave me behind like living debris Fortunately, I know that I'm not worth it In my purest form, I was never good enough for anyone Why did I think that this time it'd be different?
I’ve just tried to move past But lately it seems like my insecurities have got the best of me And I’m no longer in control No one should ever have to feel like this To feel like me And even though the good I have outweighs the bad, The bad is what’s leaving me with sleepless nights
Passed another pointless year Foaming at the mouth I with my hands have a rope And you're stretching out I know I've run out of luck This fear is a terrible drug If I only had sense enough To let it give way to love