Look WhA1 You Made Me Do [Archived] • Page 64

Bc it doesn't live up to the book?

 

Oops I meant arent

 

Too high for my own good

 

fun but not really scary if that's what you're expecting

 

I might've made a mistake not watching Get Out tonight

 

the only scary ass clown I know is the president heyo

 

much like Poison, I ain't lookin for nothin but a good time

 

Because it sucks

 

Do you want to fight me

 

Yes. I don't want to spoil it tho..

 

THIS IS THE BEST AMERICAN HORROR STORY SEASON EVER.

 

Not really. A lot of fighting today over food. But if you go to the It thread i ranted in there for awhile

 

OMG it's like 55 degrees in my room.

 

Sanch, where do you live?

 

Cincinnati.

 

Nice. What’s your address? I’m gonna send you a carb blanket

 

No GD carbs are coming into my bedroom.

 

I feel like I’ve so much time being intoxicated and fucked up to the point where I don’t know how to be sober at night and I really resent that.

 

Like I’m lying in my bed fully clothed. Cutoff time is like in 28 minutes and I’m doing everything I can not to dive into my car and go to the store.

 

Are you drunk? Rub one out and hit da hay. But don’t get in dat dayum car

 

No, I’m sober. I’ve been trying to quit, last night I slipped up and I regretted it so tonight I tried again. Made it, gotta do it again tomorrow.

 

I self medicated for so long I never thought I would get to where I could be sober at night. No lies. It blows and it doesn't get easier. Then one day it'll hit you that you don't need it. It's not benefiting you the way you/your body/mind thinks it is. You're not the piece of shit you think you are and everyone DOES care. Hang in there. You'll conquer it. We're here for you.

 

Thank you, I really needed that. Might’ve shed a tear too

 

Sorry man, I was kinda tipsy and definitely interpreted your post incorrectly. I haven’t self medicated in that regard, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t resorted to unhealthy habits and addictions. That feeling of “fuck, I fucked up today and now I have to reset and start tomorrow” is all too real to me. It doesn’t make you a bad person at all man, you’re just human. I know that sounds cliche but it’s true. My suggestion is getting an accountability partner who you can turn to whenever you feel low or feel the urge to indulge, that can be someone irl or online. Or even a blog post dedicated to venting out your thoughts. Both of those things helped me a lot. And as Erin said, we’re here for ya