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whatcha listening to

 

Grimes - art angels

 

He's a crappy thief and I want to jump him.

 

heard kill v maim on the radio the other day and it just made me remember how much i love that record

 

Like your car was stolen!? Holy shit that's awful

 

great fall album

 

Yeah and it hadn't turned up after three weeks so I got a new (used) car and then a week later my old car turned up, so I sold it because it wasn't in the best shape

 

How's it going Daddy Milkshake?

 

She messaged back. You know what? Imma be real for a minute, I don’t fucking like how she’s being passive aggressive with me about how we split. Like thanks for saying you shouldn’t of done what YOU did but fuck you for acting like I’m the bad guy in the situation. I wasn’t the one who wouldn’t answer my messages, I’m not the one who talked about moving to the other side of the state with Nora, I’m not the one who shoved me away when I was stressed out too and just wanted to be there when we were three hours apart from each other. I’m not the one who sent a giant text a month later telling me to stay away from you and the child. Like that fucking hurts, you know? I’m sorry I relapsed, I’m sorry for what I did but don’t bring up things I said in the past against me and act like you didn’t do your share of shitty things or downplay it. Like she said that she didn’t know why I didn’t reach out before, YOU FUCKING TOLD ME NOT TO!!! Like that was a huge part of why it took me so long to say anything, I was so fucking afraid of her telling me fuck off and hide from me. Yes, it was my mental health and substance abuse issues too but fuck, man. That really hurt my feelings.

 

Sorry, guys, I went on autopilot in rant mode there.

 

Imma plant a decoy bag and watch it for 15 minutes before working out sporadically for the next few weeks.

 

I know you've been working on getting/staying sober so best of luck with that and I hope that this keeps you motivated to stick with it man

 

You're doing a good thing trying to be there for her. Stay at it and don't let her intimidate you out of it

 

Stakeout Nate

 

I know chances are low it will work... but still. From what I know he already stole another guy's keys recently.

 

This how she’s always been. Like when we got back together, she acted like her friends belittling me and keeping her phone away from her the night we broke up the first time was no big deal. She acted then like I was the asshole because I blocked her number and everything to get away from that, said that I “didn’t fight for her”. Like that was fucking abusive, and I’m supposed to feel bad about that?

 

Fuck, this is getting me heated.

 

Patton Oswalt's new special is pretty good.

 

The Polish Lady bit is fantastic

 

he's always great

 

I loved the David Lee Roth callback

and yeah failure pile in a sadness bowl is at least top 10 bits probably top 5

 

I’m really sorry I unloaded like that in here, guys. This whole thing has been very hard on me for some time and that really hurt my feelings that she’d be passive aggressive with me after I opened up to her about what happened. Like I’m just trying to make things right, there’s no reason to dredge up the past like that and use it to make me feel bad. I’m doing this for my daughter, I don’t care about her hangups, I can’t go back in time and change it.

This honestly makes me worried about going forward with this. Like I’m looking forward here, Nora is the priority and now I gotta worry that she’s going to pull more stuff like this in the future. Ugh. I totally understand the DO IT FOR HER bit from The Simpsons now, I’m not going to like dealing with my ex about this but I need to be there for my daughter despite that.

 

I feel like I'd just cry

 

I don't even want to fucking travel anymore bc I'm scared of how shitty everything is right now, tbqh. I'd just be stressed out the whole time.

 

Finally watching the Demi Lovato documentary. I’m already crying.