Just Another Day In LA1iens Exist [ARCHIVED] • Page 906

@Dog with a Blog come impart some of your sexual magnetism on me and I'll, idk, teach you not to be an insane person or whatever

 

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I love that my reaction to everything now is just putting *Marvins Room playing*

 

"Went to a red hot chili peppers cover band show"

Good news - no longer attracted to this person

 

imagine taking the time to learn an instrument only to play in a RHCP cover band, just spending hours trying to learn Flea riffs

 

would yall fuck with a pizza with fig preserves, blue cheese, and balsamic vinegar? mind blown

 

You know what’s sad? Being mixed with a lot of races and basically ghosting your old “best friends”
who used to tokenize and gaslight you about race / being upset by racism. And made way too many off color jokes about racial tension, and expected / conditioned you to be copacetic about it because “my friends aren’t REALLY racist they just make really straightforward social commentary.”

But then that same friend is getting way too pissed off at black people in traffic and one time the car literally didn’t realize they cut us off, and said “hi” nicely when we rolled down the window... and he said some racist shit before driving off like a motherfucking C O W A R D. And then vents to me out of frustration... as if desperately trying to convince me he just got overwhelmed and didn’t mean to be so fucked up in that moment.

Or like when we went to the movies in Silver Spring MD and they got in an argument cause black girls were talking in a movie theatre (which literally isn’t a big deal to anyone but white people) and I DEFENDED them and even spoke the way I speak to my New Orleans family to get them to take me seriously. because the rest of that movie theatre saw them for what they are, semi-racists who try to hide behind “politeness” as an excuse to diss black culture.

Or like how they’re “introverts” and don’t want to hang with my friends and judge them every time they hear a story that they aren’t in a good mood... but then unannounced his racist ass cousin who makes N**** jokes and also really sexist jokes so often that it’s obvious he’s using the jokes to vent his actual bigotry... just comes over or is already there when we planned to hang out. And I spend the whole day getting passive aggressively picked on by him (“you know I love you right? I don’t mean it.”) But I can’t talk shit cause that’s my closet racist friend’s cousin. I just am expected to “be a good sport” and take the teasing and pretend that I’m not the butt end of all their jokes the whole afternoon.

Or like how he has a black adopted sister and black friends but since they all were raised in white neighborhoods, he uses them and the way they talk / act as an excuse to be mad that black people from black neighborhoods act differently.

Or like how he loves Tribe Called Quest but makes fun of black dialect and the abbreviated grammar on a regular basis.

And then I visit them in a Asheville for a camping trip and the one time a racial political discussion comes up, and I’m older and I have the cajones to be real about my feelings, it turns into a tense almost-fight about how I’ve changed and shit. And we had an amazing trip in the Smoky Mountains but somehow all I think about still is that fight where they STILL, at 27ish years old, didn’t take me seriously when I said I didn’t like race jokes anymore and I think they should be taken seriously in our political climate.

You know what’s sad? Unlearning being complicit with “subtle” yet obvious-with-context-clues racism because you’re a brown kid who grew up in white racist suburbs. Taking until age 28-29 to be angry at how your white friends tokenized you all throughout childhood because you “talk right” and “aren’t violent” (but that’s your fucking family they’re making a backhanded comment about.)

And even worse, you know what’s sad? Being depressed you lost those friends who simultaneously deeply cared about you and were there for you whenever something bad happened, because they’re too stubborn to admit they were raised with racist tendencies and they need to change the way they think. Even though I cut them out of my life very intentionally, I’m still sad about it every day.

Annapolis, MD is in the “northeast” and right by ultra diverse DC and Baltimore, but let me tell you what that is a racist ass town. So racist that these friends I describe don’t even realize they’re racist because they’re “just joking” and -not as bad- as their alcoholic uncles. So racist that these people were my best friends for years since college and I didn’t realize how much it was affecting my self esteem as a POC.

 

I know that post is long but Das my feelings rn

 

Absolutely not

 

put a sock on your #ock the first time you get intimate

 

that's not a pizza it's a flatbread, I don't like blue cheese so nah

 

NO

 

well I made it a pizza

but first I had it as a bruschetta at this lit place

 

I promise its great

 

Shut the phrunt door

 

bruschetta is perfect as is no need to get all fancy

 

you can only talk to my alts this way

 

fail

 

Praise god

 

@iCarly Rae Jepsen ur out here eating plain ass bruschetta by itself, nothing on it?

 

the clawdaddy has risen

 

He puts mayo, Hollandaise, and garlic cloves on it.

 

like tomatoes and olive oil or whatever standard bruschetta is, I'm not just eating plain bread haha

like that

 

smdh @ milkshake eating freaking wasp corpses on his dam pizza

 

also dont talk in the movie theater