Got my stitches out. hurt a little bit but not too bad. My heart was beating like crazy (guy taking my vitals even commented on it) and I've forgotten how anxious hospitals make me.
I feel like I'm one of the only ones that does rounds the "right way" or however you want to say it. I document everything I feel the previous shift didn't do, and they get mad. Like do your job. You have more people on your shift than I do my shift. Most of them don't know how to work as a team and one had a bad attitude and doesn't like to be told what to do. Everyone keeps telling me I should get my RN but I don't want to go back to school.
I wish I was more talented. Some people are just so talented. Like even at being a person. I wish I was talented at being a person and was someone ppl would be like "ah yeah they are so [positive trait here lol]" but I just feel like I'm floating around and am boringly average in every way. I'm being very self-pitying rn lmao but I'm listening to music and I'm like how are they so good at this and I'm not good at anything?? I wanna know what it's like to be super talented at something.
I also spend a lot of time feeling bad that I don't have a skill or talent, drawing, singing, playing an instrument, juggling, I'm not picky
I think part of my problem is I want to be good at something without really trying lmao. U just hear ppl talking about talented ppl like they had all this natural skill from the get go. I know it takes work after that, but I wanted to be a natural at anything. I guess I was a natural at writing, but I'm not super creative so I could only write uninspired and boring content with some promise lol. I never had ~anything to say. And now I haven't done it in so long I can't really write at all haha
So I guess I just wish I was more creative. I feel like I can be book smart and regurgitate information but I can't really add interesting insight or ideas or do anything original or creative.
Sports and dance were the only things I was ever good at. I tried to get good enough to do those cool yoyo moves but that shit is way harder than you would think.
lol I did this with the guitar. I was ready to be a prodigy and was so not lol. It's when I discovered I have a hard time with like copying finger movements lol? Idk how else to say it. I do it with sign language too. I like flip it all around and upside down and have an extremely difficult time with it. I'd say it's the lefty curse but that's supposed to make me more creative or something!!
this song comes on at my work everyday and I always forget to Shazam it until last night. I don't know why but it's so calming and it's great to sing along with.
I hate that there's a holiday centered around wearing a color that I hate wearing. I hate even more that I succumb to it! I don't own green clothes so I have to go the makeup angle. I'm surprised I even own green nail polish and I'm looking at my nails in disgust cause I hate wearing green lol #follower
I'm cranky so imma whine about more I hate when I wanna watch a clip of something but all I can find are clips set up and presented by those fake Internet youtube news ppl. I don't need you to tell me what I'm about to watch. I just wanna see the clip, not u rambling about it for way longer than the clip itself.
I wouldn't have worn green but I fully expect someone to try and pinch me if I don't, and the thought of someone pinching me for not wearing green is more annoying than wearing green. In terms of not-real-holidays, it's about in the bottom middle tier for me. Like not as annoying as April fools day but not even close to the flaw free valentine's day While I'm on the subject, it's criminal that Halloween isn't a real holiday with a day off work, or at least the day after. It gets its own pop up stores, it's worth getting work off imo! More than presidents day
my sleep schedule has set itself to some bizarre biphasic shit (1pm-5pm; 12am-4am) and i don't know how to deal with it. i'm basically awake for two separate eight hour blocks wtf
Not gonna lie I have a green eyeshadow look today and it's pretty amazing despite me not being a huge fan of green
Today I was at the gas station and they ask for ur number for the safeway rewards thing. I use my dad's club card so I always use his #. A few times FOREVER ago, the attendant asked me about it cause he said it's an unusual area code and I'm like idk it's my dad's number. Forever ago. Today I guess it was the same guy cause he was like "this is your dad's number, right? You look different from the last time I saw you" like...k?? I thought it was weird. Like who even are you