Went to a wedding with my man this weekend, really put the microscope over our relationship and made our joke discussions about marriage much more somber. We smoked cigars together on the porch and he grabbed my hand and told me I’m the first man he could envision having kids with. I’ve been working on a collection of letters where I reflect on events on my life that in retrospect were transformative moments. I hope to hand these down to my kids. He added, unprompted, that if he gets to the point where he’s serious about it he wants to add letters to the work. It was such an incredible and pure moment that I can’t even remember what I said in response, I’m sure it wasn’t as enthusiastic as I should’ve been but it was so raw that I still don’t think I’ve been able to process it properly. I thought I’d have this surge of emotion but instead I’ve kinda been keeping it close to my chest now because this is everything I’ve ever wanted and I’m afraid of getting too attached because I don’t want to be hurt.
Skipped the canyon, but went to a bunch of other places. Had a really great time with her. Feels weird being so happy all of the time.
We did Vegas/Red Rocks on Thursday, Zion/Pink Sands in Utah on Friday/Saturday, Sedona/Cards game in AZ on Sunday. It was an awesome trip, but I wish we had dedicated more than one day to each place. There is just so much to see. I've been keeping it really tame since we started seeing each other. She says I can grow it out, but I'm comfortable where it is at right now.
I absolutely love everything between Flagstaff and Sedona. Everything else is an expansive wasteland. We drove from Zion to Flagstaff and saw NOTHING for three hours. It was so depressing. I just wanted some cell service or something. lol
Yeah, driving through a majority of AZ is godawful boring. Nevada seriously depresses the absolute shit out of me. I hate every time I end up going there.
thanks buddy! Its so crazy how much of a difference six months make. I feel like I'm on the complete opposite side of the emotional spectrum now. Life is p cool.
Sedona is one of my favorite places in the world. You really get a great taste of everything when you are over there. I already wanna go back.