Did she add cheese? Nah, I didn't feel like driving 5 1/2 hours with a 3 month old. Plus my wife actually plans to do some shopping and that's not exactly a thriving town haha
Was thinking about where I was this time last year.. I was in a bad situation.. was in an abusive relationship and had been for three years.. its kind of interesting thinking about it actually because right about this time is when I had decided I needed to leave.. I didn't want to do it during the holiday season though and was still figuring out what was right.. it would take me over a month to really get up the confidence to say I was done.. but I did and part of me still knows it was the right thing to do but another part of me asks if I would have known how hard it would be to restart my life from scratch this time last year would I have made the same choice? Maybe that's why we aren't blessed with the ability to see the future.. we would constantly be avoiding what's best for us because it just seems too hard or scary..
dad and i were invited to a thanksgiving get together by my dads friend and theres a cute girl here... hm...
dad wanted to leave so thats ggs on that saga. i think i made friends with her dad so thats funny anyway im revisiting my tinder profile and i can never settle on a bio. its so hard trying to find the sweetspot between being different but also too much. like i was happy with this bio a week or so ago but now im havin second doubts. havent matched in a while so i think the algorithm finally got to me :/
If anyone ever needs to see the future, message me. I have the ability to be 50% correct every single time.
Thanks for the input everybody, I have done some processing and I am realizing that it is still very hard to have contact but I also don't know that no contact at all is possible right now as I still have all of my stuff at the apartment, which he is staying in now. And Thanksgiving last night was hard, I could tell he was struggling and then when I got home he texted me that it was still very hard not to be with me and that he misses me, then went on about "our" things again. I didn't answer. He is away next weekend and I want to take the opportunity to go over and pack my stuff in boxes. Right now I don't have a permanent place so it's kind of hard to really plan everything, but I want to be ready to go. He really dislikes this idea but honestly I also have to be better about asserting myself and saying what I need, which is something I struggle with. I am going to tell him that friendly texts and calls just to chat probably need to lessen because it's too hard and I can tell he is still hanging on hoping for something to change. Anyway as hard as this all is I have my girlfriend and we are planning on going away next weekend for a night and that's what's keeping me going. Just gotta get through all this hard stuff first.
Ok I got impatient and just asked if he was busy or ghosting so now I have to face an answer or no answer which is also an answer lol Also sent a pretty cool Ghostbusters gif