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jkauf liked beatingheartsbaby's post in the thread Mental Health Thread.
I think seeing repeatedly negative messaging about any topic, no matter how righteous and “correct” that negativity may be, takes a mental toll. Has happened to me on more than one occasion
Jun 24, 2025 at 4:35 PM -
jkauf liked Aaron Mook's post in the thread Mental Health Thread.
Gonna start this post by saying I understand how this sounds, and I'm unsure how to say it without it sounding that way, but most of the people on this site know me and my views so I'm gonna try not to worry about that part too much. A friend of mine added me to a group chat comprised completely of queer women and then her husband and myself as they tend to watch horror movies together virtually and she invited me to join. Really cool that they feel comfortable enough to allow me in that space and I definitely appreciate it. We've had a lot of fun in there. Lately, especially as the political situation has gotten more dire, the chat has slowly turned into a "men are vile," "men continue to be the worst," etc. thing, which I totally get. And I know it's not in reference to me. I do think on some level, seeing that messaging every day is starting to affect me mentally? No matter how much I recognize that those things are not in reference to me and I usually agree with them considering the context being presented, it does not change the fact that I do not like myself often as it is and the messaging is starting to worm its way into my brain as another thing to feel guilt or shame for that I don't have control over. So while I understand and respect their feelings, I've had to mute that chat as I feel like it's started to impact my already over-sensitive brain (especially while raising a young boy). I hope this post doesn't come off as a #notallmen thing because it's really not supposed to be. Sometimes I just have to remove myself from negative situations if they start to impact my mental too much. But for whatever reason, I feel dumb/guilty/weird about doing it and just needed to vent somewhere.
Jun 24, 2025 at 4:34 PM -
jkauf liked beatingheartsbaby's post in the thread Mental Health Thread.
I don’t have access to prestige forum anymore but I’d like to celebrate a big win today: 500 days clean from fentanyl
Jun 23, 2025 at 10:11 AM -
jkauf liked Aaron Mook's post in the thread Mental Health Thread.
Starting to dread work, which is frustrating because my job isn't even that bad. Just want to stay at home with my son. I can't believe we've normalized working our lives away like this.
Jun 23, 2025 at 10:11 AM -
jkauf liked beatingheartsbaby's post in the thread Mental Health Thread.
been struggling with this exact problem for years, it initially began because of how heavily I was abusing stimulants and depressants at the same time and eventually I did have some heart issues but even now having been healthy for a good chunk of time and all my most recent labs having came back fine, if my anxiety spikes the first thing I’m checking is my heart rate and if it’s above 100 I start freaking out even more. horrible shit.
Jun 21, 2025 at 3:44 AM -
jkauf liked waking season's post in the thread Mental Health Thread.
I’m sorry to hear that, my dad also died unexpectedly from a heart attack a few years ago which only adds to my anxiety about it. I slept funny the other day and my sternum is sore so that and the stress I’ve already been feeling about the state of this country and general lack of sleep has been a hell of a combo.
Jun 20, 2025 at 4:31 AM -
jkauf replied to the thread Mental Health Thread.
Always had the same issue with anxiety symptoms and then my dad passed from a heart attack and made it even worse. Sorry I know that’s not helpful, but have felt every word of this and totally get it.
Jun 19, 2025 at 6:42 PM -
jkauf liked waking season's post in the thread Mental Health Thread.
I hate how much my anxiety symptoms can mimic a heart attack, which is naturally one of the things I’m most anxious about. I’ve been eating, drinking, and sleeping like shit the last few weeks too and have put on some weight recently so that’s only contributing to the anxiety that it might be a heart issue. Really need to start taking better care of myself again.
Jun 19, 2025 at 5:25 PM -
jkauf liked Aaron Mook's post in the thread Movie Saw X (Kevin Greutert, 2023).
That's cool, but Saw X was the best one yet so I'd love for it not to stray too far from that
Jun 18, 2025 -
jkauf liked angel paste's post in the thread The DMV (DC/Maryland/Virginia) Thread.
I got kicked out of Ottobar because my friend is an idiot
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jkauf liked genericities's post in the thread The DMV (DC/Maryland/Virginia) Thread.
what are some cool thrift stores in DC that have alt fashion? I like Buffalo Exchange and Pavement but the BE in DC closed up
Jun 18, 2025 -
jkauf liked waking season's post in the thread Mental Health Thread.
Really not doing great right now, feeling incredibly hopeless in the face of fascism and war. Fuck Israel. Fuck Trump and anyone enabling this government.
Jun 18, 2025